e beginning of e little musings

I was lazing by the beach, gazing at the cloudy sky. What a beautiful afternoon - to be off work, to be alone by the beach, and to mull over the little happenings of my recent life. Feeling rather introspective, i began the 1st posting of this little blog.

But I have to first attribute my gratitude to the singapore govt: kudos for the wireless@sg, otherwise this blog cannot be borned into this tiny isle of sentosa.

In Ecclesiates, the Preacher said "Vanity of vanities, all is vanity". How true! Much i've pursued was just grasping for the wind. And how meaningless!

My mind was drawn to the slate of events that happened in the last 12 mths:
New job & new industry
New church & new ministry
Preparing for a new marital status & new home
New gym membership: new yoga
New financial investing: equities and funds

These changes did have substantial amounts of impact on me. Yet it amazes me that i’m recently feeling rather apathetic towards all these changes. Was i getting old? Or slightly jaded? Where was my childlike fervour? Or was it because i have realised that all is just grasping for the wind?

Then that would give me another reason to continue lazing by the beach, and gazing at the sky, feeling the breeze on my face, knowing that this too is also ephemeral.

But sadly my work-conditioned mind gently reminds me that perhaps it is time i should do some inner reflection and recalibrate my energies. While at the same time, of cos, continue to laze on the beach...